Monday, December 28, 2009


I have eavesdropped with impunity into the lives of people who do not exist. I have peeped shamelessly into hearts and bathroom closets. I have leant over shoulders to follow the movements of quills as they write love letters, wills and confessions. I have watched as lovers love, murderers murderand children play their make believe. I have spied on the misdeeds of the mighty and witnessed the nobility of the meek. I have bent so low over sleepers in their beds that they might have felt my breath on their faces. I have seen their dreams. - The Thirteenth Tale, Diane Setterfield.

The excerpt above epitomizes so beautifully the power of imagination when coupled with the sword of words..I'm currently lost in this book. Beautifully gothic, eloquently phrased imageries, with vivid armies of character woven in the not to get lost?

Been listening to a lot of Coltrane and the Jacques Loussier Trio these days. Jazz music like these often send me walking on air with my head stuck right up there in fluffy clouds.

Friday, December 25, 2009

Hi there dear all,
First off, a big apology 4 seemingly dropping off the blogosphere lately. Things have just been pure madness, but then again, Christmas wouldn't be Christmas without that little lacing of insanity.

I do hope it isn't too late to wish y'all a Merry X'mas. Here's 2 overflowing Christmas stockings, sticky Christmas puddings and creamy eggnogs. May your halls be filled with merry rings of laughter, accompanied by the scents of good cheer floating amidst the cacophony of unwrapping gifts....


Sunday, December 20, 2009

Feliz Navidad

Today’s Smile Inducer : Good company, good food, great laughs, memorable weekends. The past few days were a dream. Alas, like all dreams, one has to wake up. Not without cherish-able memories though :)

Christmas trees so tall you have to tilt your head way up. Wonder, joy and lightheartedness reflected in shiny red, gold and silver balls. The air echoes of Christmas carols and Christmas cheer so tangible you feel it slowly chipping at the ice in your heart and warming you right down to your little toe. There’s a mutual sharing of holiday joy ringing in the air, only to be punctuated by a joyful child’s giggle and the quick pitter patter of last minute Christmas shoppers. Oh, and there is this lingering scent of pine trees, chocolate, whipped cream and cookies nipping teasingly at your senses.

Christmas has definitely got to be my favourite time of the year. Can you believe it’s hardly a week more to Christmas?

Christmas waves a magic wand over this world, and behold, everything is softer and more beautiful – Norman Vincent Peale

Friday, December 18, 2009

Just Friends

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Spend life with who makes you happy. Not who you have to impress - Anon

Let's talk relationships tonight. Always a sticky line, more taboo than most care to admit, let's venture into the wild and risky shall we?

There is this thing about Asian cultures, especially amongst the conventionally traditionally conservative pack (phew, lots of adjectives there), that a girl and a boy can never be just friends. The thing that I don't get about these people is why be so hypocritical? Why read so much into nothing? Why draw your own conclusions, be the director of your own self-indulgent fantasy and hurt the people around you whilst you carry on in your own stupidity?

Gossiping, spreading false 'truths', passing on vindictive lies, boys behaving like girls. What are we in? Pre-school again? No, scratch that, I think even 5 year olds have better powers of deduction that some grown adults.

Maybe it's just me. I'm basically a really open person when it comes to stuff like this. I have made a couple of really good guy friends over the years. Nothing romantic just good, solid, friendship. I actually think that guys, despite some having the innate ability to be total jerks in relationships really have the potential to be really sweet when they do put their minds to it. It is here that I remind myself not to let the minority cloud my thoughts on the majority :)

It may be to my own sorry case that I can't keep my opinions to myself. I just hope that people will stop being so judgmental. So, boy-girl,in platonic relationships ... fact or fiction? Truth or myth? I don't know. You tell me.

p.s : I would really like to thank all you guys who have left me such sweet comments in the previous post. I value them very much. It's the holiday season. I should really stop being so angsty. From this post on, cheerful cheerful :) Promise!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Use somebody

I've been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see,
Painted faces fill the places I can't reach
-Use Somebody, Kings of Leon

The phrase ‘use and throw’ used to be only limited to disposable items, eating utensils, toiletries, diapers, well, you get the picture. I must have been sleeping in an entirely foreign land and missed the moment the phrase applied to ‘friends’ too.

When I build friendships, I lay the founding bricks in small, hesitant pieces. But when I finally trust, I tend to go all in, full throttle, all or nothing. That is probably the reason why I’m always finding myself the victim of crash and burns, hit and runs.

At times I feel like confronting these tormentors of mine. “Hey! I know what you’re up to”. Truth is, I think I lack not the courage for confrontation but rather the strength to search alone again. I’m na├»ve enough to lay all my trust repeatedly in the person who takes it, that fragile little globe of feeling and crush it. And as I lay in the middle of the glittering splinters of my hopes and dreams, I see despair, desperation and knowledge that this would have happened through tear-blind eyes.

I’m tired of second-guessing intentions. I’m tired of trying to pry through the masks that people don. I need to know that when I lean in and whisper a secret, you’ll keep it in your heart, just like I would yours. I need to know that when I fall, you’d laugh with me, not at me. I need to know that when I reach out, blind in the dark, you’d be my eyes, ears and heart. I need to be stupid, but right for once.

Call me silly if you want to, I’m adamant to live my fantasy. That fantasy where people really, truly care for the person that I am, not what I can do for them. Rude awakenings will only harden my resolve. I’m stubborn enough to want to look at the glass as half full. Maybe it’s to my detriment that I prefer to find friends for keeps, not keep friends for use. Right now, I really could use somebody...

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Just me

The crowd swelled around me , swirling and swishing in a kaleidoscope of colours, forms, emotions, thoughts. Swallowing me whole, I welcomed its cloak of anonymity. Lovers brushed past, two bodies stuck in a single soul, oblivious to the surroundings. There were tourists, cameras at the ready to put into tangible form what the mind would always remember. Little children zoomed past my ankles, dervishes in a blur of colourful dresses and quick feet.

It is at times like these that the anonymity of being in a crowd seduces me. In this sea of strangers, there exists no expectations, only a rare sort of acceptance. For in that one instant, I can cease being the diligent student, the girlfriend, the dutiful daughter, the listening ears and supporting shoulders. For one indulgent, selfish moment, I get to be me.

If you haven't really tried anything .. how can you say nothing works?

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Candle in the Wind

Today's Smile Inducer : Being alive. We so often whine about the injustices life doles out on us. Looking back, sweetness would never have been as enticing if it had not been preceded by a tinge of bitterness. For that, I am ever grateful.

We were cruising along the highway when we were forced to slow down by a sudden crawl in traffic. Through my headphones, Michael Buble sang of home whilst I let out a silent curse at the lateness of the hour,the emptiness of my stomach. Anxious and impatient to get home, I looked out the window, having a good mind to bestow upon the cause of this jam a cold, angry glare. It was then that I saw them.

Two policemen, one wrecked motorcycle, one bodybag. There were no flashing lights, no hurried commotion, only the shattering silence that often accompanies the roaring unreality of tragedies. It was hard to believe that on this dark, lonely stretch in the middle of nowhere, someone had just drawn his or her last breath.

Somewhere out there, a parent, a child, brothers, sisters, or even a pet would soon feel the splintering pain of loss. There are no right words, or thoughts when life is snuffed out so suddenly. In that one moment of clarity, I found myself thanking God for second chances and life in its entity. It's sad really, that it takes a lifeless form to jerk one back to life.

I reached home to find dinner already set and ready. No longer ravenous, only one thought crossed my mind as I absently registered flavour, textures, layers :

I made it home safe, someone out there never did.

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Flattered, Honoured, Speechless

Today's Smile-Inducer : So urm, I got an award! Now, I’ve been hearing about people getting Best Blog Awards but never in my wildest dreams would I have thought I would someday get one...There are no words to describe how honoured I feel that Kathy a.k.a Mamarazzi of SmallKucing thinks I’m worthy of this award. Thank you so much ! Oh boy, now there’s the pressure to live up to it … haha

Oh, and the rules are :

1] Post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award and his/her blog link.

[2] Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you have recently discovered and think are great!

So here’s my list of the blogs that I visit, browse and finally leave feeling awed, inspired, and happy. In no definite order...

  1. Fiona – one of the best girls I’ve had the privilege to know. We go way back
  2. Owl Order – his photography staggers me most times.
  3. Suituapui – I go there for my daily drools and visual meals.
  4. Caring is not only sharing - Love reading about the various escapades around Ipoh town, the food and the travels
  5. Mally – we went to the same kindy, primary and high school. Rode in the same bus for 5 years but NEVER talked. Till I found out about her blog recently. J She grew up to be really gorgeous! Both in and out.
  6. Eza – a lovely girl, die-hard romantic. Reading her blog leaves me feeling oozy, cozy.
  7. Juney June – another classmate recently discovered through the wonder that is the internet. Loved catching up on old times
  8. Cleffairy – tells it as it is. Lovely writing
  9. Jared – The Awesomesauce Times. Need I say more?
  10. Yi Wei – really insightful observations, thoughts and reflections. Reading her humbles me.
  11. Guo Zheng – very deep, very intellectual, very intelligent reflections on daily happenings
  12. Eyeris – I constantly pop by for reviews on books, movies and music. Yum!
  13. Gabriel – A whole ton of interesting stuff. Very devout too
  14. Joash – Spins really heartwarming tales. Future doctor no less !
  15. J2kfm – introduces lovely places to eat in good ole Ipoh .. and everywhere else too

They leave me weak at the knees, in a good way. It’s just too sad that 15 is such a wee number..blogs not listed are by no means lacking greatness. This greedy girl devours anything written with unrestrained glee. =)



Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Twirls and Swirls

It was one of those days. He put on a record, releasing soft music into the lazy afternoon.

I looked up at him, shooting him a cheeky grin. Even then I knew I could have my way whenever I was with him.

“Dance with me. Teach me how.”

And so he took my small hands and clasped them in his large ones. Gathering me close, he counted softly in my ear “1,2,3,1,2,3 …. That’s all there is to it, follow the beat”

“Left foot forward, right foot back.”

“I can’t. I can’t keep up” I stumble and fall back, beginning to sulk.

With a chuckle he lifted me up on his toes and together we twirled around the room. Delighted, I laughed, a musical tinkle breaking the earlier solemnity.

“This is fun! Spin faster!” and so he did.

Grandma laughed at us then.

Dizzy, spent and tired, he set me down at last.

“One day you’re going to grow up and I bet you’re going to break some hearts too, my darling”

More than a decade later, I’ve grown up. I don’t know if I’ve broken any hearts along the way. But I do know one thing for sure. I broke yours. I’m sorry, but all I want is to dance on your toes again.

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Of Body, Mind and Soul

Heavily made up, scantily clad, she stood out in a circle of ogling males, her smooth, translucent skin a magnet for lewd, suggestive stares. Basking in the attention, she parades more flesh, carefully painted lips tilting upwards in a cat’s smile of seduction.

“We’re having a promotion today sir … “ she purrs, the sly tease of a promise hidden in the unfinished sentence.

It constantly boggles me how the male of the species fall for such quick-fixes. Blatant in-your-face-sex-appeal is the death of enigma. Allure settles becomingly in elegance, attitude and poise. But what can I say? Sex sells, and marketers, geniuses that they are pounce on such opportunities.

There are two meals on the menu here. One is cheap, easily available, common, fast food. A dime a dozen. The other, a gourmet meal, the very scent of which entices the most jaded of connoisseurs. Which would you choose? The quick albeit filling bite, or an experience born to be sampled, explored, discovered. Textures to be savoured, hidden layers to be sought out, appreciated.

It is sad to admit that at times like these, I don’t blame men for degrading women. I mean, if you’ve already done such an excellent job out of it yourself, who’s going to listen when you wail “Gallantry is dead!” ?

This post was ‘inspired’ after a visit to the PC fair in KLCC today. No wonder people flock there by the dozens. Short skirts, bare tummies, skin tight uniforms, and cleavage enhancing tops were the theme of the party. Since when was it the motto of every sales rep to leave nothing more to the imagination? Verdict : At least you can’t complain that stuff there weren’t cheap…

World AIDS Day was Dec 1st (Ooops..sorry for the previous error ...thanks for pointing this out Cleffairy..). Far from being the panacea to AIDS, I thought it was only appropriate if I shared my thoughts in these 4 words . JUST Keep. It. Zipped !

Saturday, December 05, 2009

Dare you to jump

Today's Smile-Inducer : Courage. Courage should not be limited to the confines of a battlefield. It's in the little steps you suck in a breath at, close your eyes and finally plunge in, eyes wide open.

Battle weary and energy-sapped, I crawled into my sanctuary of oblivion to lick my wounds. Dug up a bar of chocolate and indulged in one of my guilty secrets…sappy romances. Watched A Walk to Remember for what must be the 50th time now. And well, let’s put it this way : the faucet leaked for the 50th time.

I don’t want empty promises and sweet nothings. I’m waiting for the love that resides in the cozy pages of female fantasies or the shimmery instruments of actors and actresses. Love that is capable of withstanding the test of time. Love, that is everything Disney has inscribed into the heads of little girls all around the world.

I want it to take on life, leap up, reach out for me, engulf and bury me in a tidal wave of ecstasy. The kind of love that is constant, patient, deeply-abiding. Rob me of all sane thoughts for fickle I may be, but hey, a girl can dream.

Someone once asked me. If you could be with The One for one day, and one day only.. would you give him your everything? I know now that a part of me would crash headfirst into the slimmest glimpse of happily ever after, even if ever after only lasts 24 hours...A fleeting illusion it may be, but fading memories are better than none. What say you?

So here’s my question. Would you trade in a day of your life or brazen through a lifetime of regrets and what ifs?

Friday, December 04, 2009

Call me cynical

Le sigh. Read this.

Sports legend, golf extraordinaire aside, I used to have respect for the man... now I have zero. Sometimes I wonder if it's really that hard for some men to think with their brains instead of to be lead off by their basal needs. Why isn't ONE ever enough, do they really need to sample everything on the buffet banquet? Sheesh, a little fidelity never killed anyone, maybe this one should get some... if only to be spared from $300 million lessons.

Thursday, December 03, 2009

Uh oh

It's time to stop dreaming of beaches and pina coladas and bring out the study mat instead ... Schedule's gonna be so tight these few weeks.

4th Dec (Fri i.e TOMORROW!!) - Advanced Design of Manufacturing Systems test. NOT PREPARED. Formulas are the bane of my existence !

5th Dec (Sat) - Go watch The Bro a.k.a Dino perform. He has a 'gig' at Wangsa Walk in conjunction with Aids Day. So i begged ordered him to let me tag along. Powers of persuasion .. heh

6th Dec (Sun) - MPO .. again! This time it's "French Romantics". And they're gonna have a cello solo. Whee... cellists are sexy :P Dragging The Boy there again... Sorry baby ...

10th Dec (Thurs) - Advanced Engineering Materials assignment deadline. Quality Engineering test. ( This. Is. A. Ticking. Time-Bomb. T.T)

11th Dec (Fri) - Speed back to Ipoh to get passport done. *yawn*

12th Dec (Sat) - Rush back to KL to lend some sibling support to Dino for Unplugged - The Battle of the Bands ... *or something..I'm bad with names :( *

14th Dec (Mon) - FYP thesis submission <---- I'm so dead so dead so dead :(

But there's always a rainbow after the rain so

Today's Smile-Inducer : Junk Food! How can I survive without my staple study companions.. Mister Potato, and Miss Chachos ..

P.s : I'm aware the ratio of fun vs. work is kinda out of proportion.. but ratios notwithstanding ....Wish me luck! *crosses fingers*

Wednesday, December 02, 2009


When people give birth,they celebrate life. At least that's what I think a normal person would do. The news continues to irk me. I have been rendered speechless

Read this. Tell me...any of you found your voice yet? They got MARRIED!! What else do you want? The child deserves a happy, well-rounded family. I can only foresee bitterness and regret if action were taken. After all, what matters most is the journey, the end. Since when do beginnings ever matter? I still can't decide whether to laugh, cry or rant.

*I'm not criticizing any religion here. Prohibiting premarital sex seems logical, good even if you think about the cases of abandoned babies. But sometimes things need to be put into perspective, no? There must be some exceptions to the law, no matter how rigid. We are all humans afterall. And to err is what we are. Live, let live and give someone the chance to make amends.

Hey you,

I’m sorry I’ve taken so long to write. It’s exactly a year now since the day you left. Wow, time sure flies huh?

It took me a while to accept the reality that you were gone. That you were no longer a text message away. That I could no longer tease you before I sleep.

In the span of a year, I realize you’ve never really left. I see you in every doting brother, I hear you tapping to your favourite songs every time they go on air, I sense you in the camaraderie of family gatherings, I remember you in your favourite foods and your favourite places.

It no longer stabs me in the heart when you come back to me in these little things … well, at least not as badly. It’s comforting to know that I bring along a part of you with me everyday, the same way you took a part of me with you when you left.

Anniversaries are to be observed (if only to escape the wrath of your other half); birthdays are to be celebrated (you missed my 21st by the way… I painted the town a shade of purple for you), achievements to be toasted, festivals to be shared with special someones, but goodbyes … I refuse to believe they exist. There’s only till we meet again.

I’m offering you a prayer today. A prayer that peace will be yours to have at last. That you’d find fulfillment, contentment and the happiness that eluded you here.

I wish you’d stuck around longer to hear what I have to say now. I love you. We all do. But I think you knew that right? Till we meet again, promise you’ll tell me all about touring the galaxy and the milky way.

P/s : Say hi to poh poh and grandma for me will you?

Lots of love,


Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy.” - Eskimo Proverb

Tuesday, December 01, 2009


Today's Smile-Inducer : Holiday thoughts. It's December. How time flies. December always reminds me of holidays. Here are snapshots of the time The Boy and I took a trip to Pangkor. Only managed to upload a few pictures. No thank you, broadband !

Update : News of me spending loads of money on 70 books is all over cyberspace. Facebook, blogs and everywhere else accept my own lil slice of the internet. Is it really THAT weird to splurge everything on books? It's still the cheapest form of travel ... and I found out they're selling the books for RM5 tomorrow ... ARGH !!!!

The resort had lots and lots of these man-made waterfalls. This one was hidden in a corner. Very pretty.

I'm terrified of rocks. But for the sake of this picture climbed atop one and managed to capture me on Mt Rock ! Damn scary ok ! And the uncle who took this took 15 minutes before asking us "Where's the button to press ar??" Grr ... could have murdered him if my legs weren't shaking so much from the fear ...
That's all for now. Assignments with a side of midnight oil beckons...

P.s : I know the quality of the pictures are really bad here. Had to resize them and compact them or else Mr Big Shot Broadband refuses to help me ...

Arrivederci !

Monday, November 30, 2009


I'm a huge fan of Jodi Picoult. The first book of hers I read was Vanishing Acts and I was blown away by her insightful observations on the human emotional make-up. Needless to say, I scoured all the bookstores in sleepy Ipoh looking for her books but came up with NONE. That was years ago before she gained mainstream popularity. Ever since the release of the movie My Sister's Keeper starring Cameron Diaz, her books have been filling the shelves of most major bookstores.

I love collecting stuff. I've now turned to books, trying feverishly to collect every single thing an author has ever wrote. Here's my list for Jodi Picoult.

Latest Additions (Thank you Big Bad Wolf)
  1. Handle With Care
  2. The Tenth Circle
  3. My Sister's Keeper
  4. Perfect Match
  5. Plain Truth
  6. Songs of the Humpback Whale
  7. Keeping Faith
  8. Mercy
  9. Harvesting the Heart

Owned and Read :

1. Vanishing Acts
2. The Pact
3. Change of Heart

Titles Left to Get :
1. Nineteen Minutes
2. Second Glance
3. Salem Falls
4. Picture Perfect

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Love Letters

Today's Smile-Inducer : A whole load of Jodi Picoult books !!!!!!!! Yes, I can now die happy (I know some of you are gonna flame me for speaking of death so often, but this is not morbidity, it is a mere expression, though I really don't see what's morbid in dying happy )

Picture taken from

I think this was so sweet. And such a pretty little girl too. Sometimes, I think children have the wisdom so many adults are foolish enough to ignore.

Saturday, November 28, 2009


Now, I hate people who make scenes in public. But I haven't had a good long cry in a while. I wish this tight fist around my heart would just uncurl. Indecision, angst, frustration, anger, discontent, hurt, worry all packaged in a flood of release. I'm not a puppet devoid of emotions. Neither am I a clown, bent on entertaining. (Irony : clowns are most often the saddest people) I laugh, I rant, I curse, I cry, I am flawed. I am human.

I wish I could phrase stuff more eloquently right now. Saves me the hassle of explanations. Whatever else, this is my blog. So sue me.

Bollllllerrrro !

So this is a long overdue post. Watched Bolero performed by the Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra on the 22nd November.

One of the highlights of the show for me was watching Dong-Hyek Lim perform live. He played Chopin's Piano Concerto in F Minor and was absolutely stunning. The fact that he was easy on the eyes didn't hurt either :P

And then there was the orchestra's rendition of Ravel's Bolero. Bolero was actually an experimentation of Ravel's on the different ways a single theme can be played and it turned out to be one of his most famous works. I think I fell in love with the snare drummer. Being the percussionist, he played the xylophone and some other miscellaneous instruments at the back. Boy would I giggle everytime he picked up the triangle, hold it up and pompously wait for his beat to 'Ting!' ... such grandeur for a tinkle .. There were two snare drummers actually, one of them a really pretty lady. And such technique and discipline! I stand amazed.

As evident in the pics, I made The Boy go along with me.

Umm.. this picture's for you mum. My favourite Chilli Pan Mee that I talk about every time you ask me what I had for lunch =p

Today's Smile-Inducer : I'll be going again for French Romantics next week. Wheeee ... I love the MPO Season. I can't believe this is going to be my last year in KL.

Friday, November 27, 2009


I did something really unthinkable and am now the proud mother of over 50 babies ... Lord help me ....

Right now, I feel like that girl in the picture .... lost in a world my own. Assignments, tests and lab reports can wait.. selected ignorance IS bliss.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Treasure Mine

Today's Smile-Inducer : 501 Must-Read Books!! We all need a guide in life. I've found my reading Bible ! I don't know how many of you realized this series sitting pompously on bookshelves everywhere, titles like 501 Must Watch Movies, 501 Must Drink Cocktails *hiccup!* or 501 Must Visit Cities... MPH has the hardcover edition of this delicious tome going for RM59.90.

Dear Santa,

I know I haven't exactly been an examplary kid this year. *Thinks guiltily of Mega Sales and visits to various Toy Stores....* If I promise to be really really good from now till you rein your reindeers in to scare the fur off Chaco ... would you could you will you?? *big puppy eyes*

P.S : Vow of good behaviour starts after confrontation with The Big Bad Wolf. A gal's gotta settle her battles first .... =p

Chocolate kisses, milk and cookies,

Monday, November 23, 2009

Thinking of you

Watching the X-Men Origins - Wolverine made me think of you. It was one of those moments when thoughts of you waft through my mind, catching me at times I least expect.

Watching your comic heroes battling on screen transported me back to that morning. Sleepy eyed and grumpy I awoke to find you already watching a movie in the room.

“What’s this?”

“X-Men ! … which coconut husk were you from anyway?”

“Well … I happen to have a really …. busy life !”

And that was how you started telling me about the action figures who graced the pages that coloured your childhood.

In your infinite patience for my dozens of interruptions for clarifications, I realized then .. here’s the elder brother I’ve always had.

“Oh my ! He self heals ??!! Coolio! “

“You didn’t know that? “ *chuckles*

If only all things could heal like that. I hope you’re doing fine up there with all your new friends. I know they’ll be special. Just like you and the heroes of your imagination.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Unfriendly? not necessarily so ....

Today's Smile-Inducer : Sleeping in! It's a luxury these days to get to sleep in. And thus this morning when the alarm rang at 9.30am, I smiled a contented cat's smile and snuggled deeper instead.....=)

I love the English language. There's just so many words to describe one feeling, one fear, one hope, one dream. There's just so much to play with! And playing with words has been a kind of passion and hobby for me. So imagine my joy when the New Oxford American Dictionary released it's dictionary word of the year. And get this... the word is *drumroll* U-N-F-R-I-E-N-D !

Oxford defines "unfriend," a verb, thusly: "To remove someone as a 'friend' on a social networking site such as Facebook.

How delightful !

And so to test out this word... I hereby unfriend you..assignments ! Alright, so I know I'm not exactly keeping to the meaning of the word but indulge a stressed up kid ...besides, doesn't that have such a nice ring to it? =P

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Being Gidon Kremer

The lights dimmed, casting an eerie glow of blue over one and all. Out of the shadows, a low voice boomed

"Just when you thought it was safe,

to go to the concert hall..*eerie chuckle*

in concert ... no one can hear you scream,

but whatever happens, don't fall asleep ...

or you will not survive...

From the producers of The Blairwitch Concert and

I Know What You Heard Last Summer ... "

and with that, 2 hours plus of bewitching entertainment ensued.

A lighthearted toy symphony kicked off the night, with a rubber duck and a warbly stuffed chicken taking up the lead. *what?? You think toys can’t hold a note ? Oh this chicken little could sure bring down the roof I tell ya*

The night then blurred past *way too fast for me* in a colourful swirl of music and laughter punctuated with rapturous applause. Performances to note were the variations on a Nokia theme, Riverdancing Violinists, and the Mafia-esque interrogation of Gidon Kremer. I especially loved the part where Gidon Kremer was tested to resist temptation. There was this particular part where the air just rang with tangible passion. Acts like “The Recording Sketch” on the other hand, were brilliant ways of conveying pressing messages.

The brunette violinists taps the blonde and gestures to her watch. She smiles back and they both get up, walking, playing and just at the exit of the stage, wave back at the audience and smile. At the other end of the stage, the crew starts packing up … oh, there goes the Amazonian cellist , the percussionist packs up, and other members of the orchestra leave, arm in arm and in good cheer.

Igudesman and Joo never failed to impress and tickle with their endless medley of brilliant humour. Gidon Kremer lent a professionally serious air to the show. At the heart of all the light-hearted banter, the undercurrents were strong. Everything progressed around the theme of the lack of appreciation towards classical music especially amongst the younger, more modern set. It was interesting to see the meld and blend of the conservative and the contemporary.

Today's Smile-Inducer : All in all, it was one of the best virgin experiences of watching a live performance ensconced in the grandeur of the Dewan Filharmonik Petronas.

Monday, November 16, 2009


Quick one : True love does exist ! This made me tear up..

On another note ... I'm finally going to watch Igudesman and Joo PLAY !!!!! It's tonight. I so can't wait. Promise to have some pictures up if my line allows

Till then ... see ya !

Monday, November 02, 2009

Incredulousness !!

Click here for what caught my attention today in The Star.

Clicking on the e-paper often brightens or clouds my day. There was once when I was lazy to read the paper and decided to milk the brother for any interesting on-dits. His reply : "Nothing informative today. Everything's lame and stupid". Being the neurotic person that I am, I thought this a blasphemy of the written word, but it is news like these that make me wonder what the authorities are thinking about these days. And reading what valuable "advice" and information these committee chairmans have to impart often leave me torn between weeping with laughter or chagrin.

I mean, go have premarital trials or something before tying the knot. Just stop wasting ink, paper and time on reports like these. Show the trees some love people !

Thursday, October 29, 2009

I'm still alive

Hi all, this is just so you know I'm not quite dead yet....albeit the absence from this blog despite the promises to blog more regularly *eyes downcast in guilt* =p

I woke up this morning and was greeted by this realization. It quite hit me on the head really... I've decided what I want to be when I grow up ! *finally*. My dream job's surely, undeniably, unchangeably *for now* a book reviewer !!!!! Imagine I get to read all I want, review them (indulge me and pretend for now that people are actually interested to know my opinion on whether an author can write or crap nonsensical blabber or do both at the same time) write about them, and get PAID to do ALL of the above ! La di da.

Okie dokes, it's time to zoom back down to earth and write up my final year project dissertation. *gulps*

P.s : I'm not drunk, intoxicated, inebriated, not not sober. I'm just really hyped up on God knows what and really inconsistent with my thoughts right now. But happy nonetheless coz it's the end of the week ..... wheeeee

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

In the shadow of The Big Guy

Today's smile-inducer : No School for the day !!! Yup, I'm a sloth that way coz it means more time for my books and more time to breathe..... things have been too hectic.

The other night I was lying in bed, suffocating from being squished in the middle of my two current bed partners, Doubt and Worry. And whilst I tossed and turned in search of comfort that seemed unattainable, this song we sang in church just popped in to lull me to sleep. Suffice to say, it was Doubt and Worry's turn to get uncomfortable and choose another bed partner.....

In Christ alone my hope is found,
He is my light, my strength, my song;
this Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
when fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My Comforter, my All in All,
here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone! who took on flesh
Fulness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones he came to save:
Till on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied -
For every sin on Him was laid;
Here in the death of Christ I live.

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain:
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave he rose again!
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me,
For I am His and He is mine -
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.

No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Silver Bells

"You may have tangible wealth untold; caskets of jewels and coffers of gold. Richer than I you can never be. I had a mother who read to me" - Strickland Gillian

Listening to Silver Bells right now. I remember this time last year, when Christmas dawned nearer and I told you how much I loved this season of the year, and you said it'll be November soon and we'll start bringing out the Christmas carols. I remember your smile, that faraway wistful look in your eyes, oh how I never had a clue. And then December came.

It's a little too early for Christmas Carols now. But the promise of something better, something unforeseen, uncertain hangs clear like the sound of a bell in the stillness of the night.....

Thursday, October 08, 2009


Today's Smile-Inducer : Seeking hidden treasures !!

Quickie : I just found out the library here stocks pretty good books ! Oscar Wilde, Virginia Woolf, A.S Byatt, Iris Murdoch and Haruki Murakami to name a few. How could I have NOT realized this earlier ??!I'm gonna have my hands full..literally! Tee hee, very bittersweet way to end my tenure here. Dios mio ! Time..stop slipping through my fingers already !

I shall leave here with a line from this book I'm reading that made me laugh since it was kinda unconventional yet made so much sense

" Always remember to stick with the people who know they're flawed and ridiculous. " -Professor Absalom Widgett, from Olivia Joules and the Overactive Imagination.

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

As promised

here's how I spent a large chunk of my holidays. Ah, I miss it already ! I managed to squeeze in some reading between the catching up with family, The Boy, and my brother dear who just has the fanciest most interesting philosophies (though we're often at loggerheads at different points of thought)

I really enjoyed all the books I've read so far, with one being the exception for being too morbid even for my taste.
The Footprints of God is light sci-fi whereby a group of scientists create the ultimate supercomputer meant to be greater than God. An otherwise lukewarm story on artificial intelligence, I really loved the way in which Greg Iles twisted and turned and reflected on the many facets than one issue could have. Read it with an open mind and it'll prove to be truly enjoyable =)

Basically in Alice Sebold's The Almost Moon, the main character smolders her mother to death and thus begins a crazy narration from the first person's POV. Whilst reading this book, I randomly quoted paragraphs from the novel to whoever was 'lucky' enough to be on MSN with me at the time, prompting reactions along the lines of "wth are you reading??! " Guess that speaks volumes about the book =P

Through a Glass, Darkly was an interesting albeit unsatisfying read. I need my murders to be brutal, fast and blood curdling. The book failed on almost all counts in this respite. The saving grace here was the detail to which the author painted the picture of glass making and the picturesque descriptions of the streets of Venice.

This was sci-fi/ fantasy and an absolute blast to read ! With a tagline like "Only the victor gets out alive" how could I have resisted it? 7 competitors from around the galaxy are teleported in to the New York Library and they battle to their deaths in order to beat the contest. With a plot like this, expect to meet aliens at every fast paced, blood chilling page turn. Best five hours I've spent so far.

One of the first Scarpetta novels I've read and suffice to say I don't think I'll ever stop ! =D Patricia Cornwell delivers her promise of really good suspense thrillers served on a platter of emotional turbulences, detailed sleuthwork and of course, grisly murders. I love stories that incorporate both a personal as well as professional take on what's going on. Delicious !

A legal thriller, Fury turned out to be a pleasant surprise with elements of fantasy and new age religions lending a throughly enjoyable twist to this fast paced story of trials, tribulations and ultimate redemption. Starting with the brutal rape of a young mother, this tale takes readers on a rollercoaster ride of emotions as the main character seeks justice for her along with juggling terrorism threats and kidnapping cases. The many conflicting sub-plots within this story first made me wonder if the author couldn't make up his mind as to what genre to really focus in, but when I finally put the book down, I realized, he did ALL genres really really well !

Today's Smile-Inducer : Reminiscing on past sinful delights :P More on that later...

Toodles !

Sunday, October 04, 2009


Today's Smile-Inducer : I owe this once again to the author of The Awesomesauce Times for making me do this meme. Excruciating but incredibly fun trying to get the pieces together! Much like a broken jigsaw puzzle :P

Jared tagged me so here is the post before I get consumed by the evil clutches of torturedom

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST,
cleverly answer these questions.
try not to repeat a song title.
it’s a lot harder than you think.

pick your artist:
Rascal Flatts

are you male or female:
Help Me Remember

describe yourself:
I Can Almost

how do you feel about yourself:

describe where you currently live:
Where You Are

if you could go anywhere, where would you go:
Take Me There

your favourite form of transportation:
Fast Cars and Freedom

your best friend is:

your favourite colour is:
The Glory of Life

what’s the weather like:
Praying for Daylight

favourite time of day:
While You Loved Me

if your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
I Was Born To

what is life to you:
Long Slow Beautiful Dance

what is the best advice you have to give:
Things That Matter

if you could change your name, what would it be:
No Reins

your favorite food is:
This Everyday Love

thought for the day:

how I would like to die:
Winner at A Losing Game

my soul’s present condition:
Break Away

my motto:

I tag Fiona, Wen Qi, Zhen Yuan, Wei Li, Guo Zheng and anyone else who wants to do this. Do leave me a link though :D

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Saturday, October 03, 2009

A Perfect Getaway

Today's Smile-Inducer : Movies, chit-chat and kaya butter toast with old friends. Nuff said =D

Watched A Perfect Getaway with Fiona yesterday. Such an apt movie to end my semester break. Movies need to have at least 3 things for me, good cast, gorgeous setting, and a storyline that keeps me at the edge of my seat. Suffice to say for this one, check, check, and check ! The movie provided substantial eye-candy to feed my sweet toothed soul both in terms of cast and setting. Set in the islands of Hawaii, with lush (albeit very eerie rainforests and *gulp* hanging cliffs for the unadventurous me) Timothy Olyphant was just drool-worthy, and both Milla Jovorich and Kiele Sanchez were sizzling.

It's been a long time since I last saw Fiona, and what a pleasure it was to find a kindred spirit who doesn't mind spending hours just chilling in bookstores with me XD. Absolutely loved the time spent catching up with you dear, and sorry for dragging you around with me when I went searching for coolants and metallic paint.

Shall not spoil it for those of you who haven't yet watched it, but shall leave you with one of my favourite sites in the movie, The Secret Falls. Like I said, Gorgeousness ! It's the last day of my holidays before I leave early Sunday morning for the Land of Hypertension and No Fun... Managed to read quite a bit this break, shall post them up later.

Toodles !