Tuesday, February 28, 2006

I'm 16....o.ok.....

You Are 16 Years Old
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
What Age Do You Act?


Ok,today sailed by just as uneventfully as always. Woke up early to go let some doc poke around my teeth. Was tired when i got back, but i was ever so determined not to go back to sleep. Bad idea. By 4 in the evening, I was nothing but a jellied zombie. Still, I presevered. Sleep was ever beckoning and i was resisting.

Checked my email and whoa, I almost got a heart attack. My mailbox was flooded! And not with those spam whoever-cares-to-read-me mails. Mails from friends and family. Welll, alright, it was mainly my fault anyway. I haven't been regularly checking my mails. So, I set my jaw, and started reading through those mails. 10 minutes down the road, I was still holding up pretty fine. 20 minutes, I had to make myself focus. 25 minutes, my finger's inching towards the little x on the upper right corner...26 minutes, it's official, i give up. There's always tomorrow right? Hehe, procrastinator's creed. Don't get me wrong, most of the email i get are very very amusing but i'm not a email-reading person. I get bored easily. Which probably explains why i babble so much to fill the silence. Like i'm doing right now.

ooh,i have some news. Finally, i've registered for my driving. Well, I'm probably the last of my friends to go get her license but better late than never right? Amidst this euphoria that's enveloping me, there's this little hitch. I have to go sit for a 5 HOUR TALK this Thursday. Great. I'm not a fan of talks. Particularly those talks that involve really boring people droning in this monotonous voice, and you're asked to shut off any form of communication with the outside world and pay attention,cause lo and behold, whatever you're gonna hear today might save your life one day. Right. But nevermind, in typical Joanna way, I'll daydream while pasting this I'm-paying-rapt-attention look on my face. I just hope I don't get those speakers with this not so likeable tendency to start picking out his victims and shooting out questions.Rapid fire.

Besides, I'm going out tomorrow !yay ! And as usual,Dad sat me down for one of his "You've got to be careful whatever you do" lectures. Dad, I'm NOT going to die, I'm NOT going to get kidnapped,or robbed or whatever else you're processing right now. People go out shopping with friends everyday and arrive home safely after that. In.one.piece. No biggie. I hope.*crosses fingers*

Ok, these past few days, I've been perpetually tired.It's as if all those lost hours of sleep are catching up with me. No amount of sleep seems to be able to satiate me. I'm the girl who used to get by with a meager 3-4 hour sleep. Now, I'm sleeping like a babe and it's not enough. Must be my age catching up with me...hmm...ok, even as i'm typing this, my eyelids are drooping and my brain's kinda fuzzy. So enough crapping on my part.

Monday, February 27, 2006

tick tock

The last few days have been chaotic. If anything, it's left this bittersweet taste in my mouth. I never envisioned something like that to happen but whatever it is, I'm kinda glad things turned out the way it did. Like they say, every cloud has a silver lining.

I remember everything as vividly as if it just happened a minute ago. The humiliation, the pent-up anger, the dissatisfaction and later, the sweet welcoming freedom and much needed escape from the madness of it all.Thinking back, I only have sympathy for such a screwed up pathetic nut case. I'm just glad that I was able to keep my head above everything else that had happened and not put my upbringing to shame. No way am i ever gonna lower myself to her standards. We may be younger but we certainly were much much wiser. I'm glad we're sane.

Today, I'm officially off. For a long time. Now, I've just got to catch up with all I've left behind. Am listening to Faith Hill right now. I think the sun's come up brightly today and heck, it's a glorious day !

Ok, enough of all that crappping. I'e got housework to do.Sigh, I've been appointed the much 'envied' post of housekeeper. And slacker....:P

p.s: Josh is outstation so I literally have full run of the house. Muahaha. Best of luck bro ! May your ecology project be a success. Whatever it is.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Attitude Check

I'm thoroughly pissed off right now. A volcanoe just waiting to erupt. The lava in me is way past it's boiling point. Why can't people just mind their own fricking business? Is it because they like to keep 'busy' ? Poking their snouts into other people's affairs. Damn irritating. Today was an 'eventful' roller-coaster ride at work. It started out fine really. Up until 'baby napkin' made her inevitable presence. There she was, making her stink evident in every thing she did. And to think that she almost caused me to erupt in a raging torrent makes my blood boil even more. She didn't even take the 'courtesy' to subtly backstab me. Not that that would be any better but I'm just too ticked off to care. Sigh, the things one will do to obtain an object of desire.

Onto another subject, I wish characters don't change so fast. I wish peer influence never existed. I'm extremely dissapointed in the turn of events involving someone who mattered. I nvere thought that person could have been so weak to forget the many values that have been painstakingly ingrained thoughout childhood. Honey, being 'cool' and distant ain't cool AT ALL. If some messed up individual told you that, then I'm sorry that you simply fail to see through someone's character. Whatever it is, reticence and being cold are two separate very different things. You're reticent when you know that you don't have something smart to say or that whatever you're going to say isn't going to make a difference anyway. YOu're cold and 'cool' when you want to get on someone's nerves at the same time making an ass out of yourself.
That said, I'm off to let off some steam.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Back !

I can't believe it, the last time I updated was 10 days ago ! And i can swear it seemed just like yesterday when i was still hankering away at the keyboard. Whatever it is, after a hiatus of more than a week, I 've finally succeeded in dragging my lazy bum to sit in front of the computer and blog away. The problem is, I have so many thoughts running through my head right now,but unfortunately, they don't stay long enough for me to pen them down. That probably explains why my posts so far have been broken and full of crap.

Valentine's Day came and passed not the way I envisioned it to be. Not that I've got a hot date or anything, but a few days before Valentine's Day, something really bad happened.Something that broke my heart beyond anything else. To add to the pain, a new found friend of mine resigned a day before Valentine's. He was certainly not at fault considering the fact that all he tried to do was gain justice but I shall not dwell on that.It's funny how sometimes you meet someone new and just when you thought that things were going to be all sun-shiny and jolly, the world comes crashing down on you with the mercy of a tsunami and sweeps away whatever dreams you were silly enough to ever have. Ships passing in the night I should say.

Out of the horse's mouth, working ain't all a bed of roses. Of course, like everything else, it has it's moments. And of course, it provides a legal source of cash. Sometimes, when I have a moment , I sit back and watch the world sort of pass by, and I'm suddenly arrested by the thought of what's going to happen to my future. I see successful career women come and have their little luncheons and I wonder, "Will I ever be like that?". It's funny how life seems to go on around you but your own life seems to be totally out of hand, at a standstill whilst time whizzes by.People expect a lot out of me, but am I able to live up to their expectations?Right now, I'm confused,uncertain and totally hating someone. Someone whose lack of common sense and tack 'radiates' and emanates through 'it's ' very pores.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Wow, it's February 9th and I've been unforgivably lazy...So, despite the fact that I don't really have much to say, I shall still blog !

Today was as mundane as ever. All we did today was sit there swatting flies..except for the occasional irritating customer, today was pretty much boring....

It can't be denied that every once in a while you get really nerve-wrecking, patience-testing customers whose main aim in life is being a pain in the arse. Today, a deceptively 'sweet' customer came up to the cashier's counter and asked for a coupon to purchase a baguette. Naturally, you have to pay for it first before leaving the counter. Like duh! So, when i very politely requested her to pay, her mask of gooey sweetnesss cracked a tiny wee bit. Unfortunately, when i dealt myself the death blow of naming the price of the baguette, her face transformed from angel to the angel from hell in a nanosecond. To the horror of everyone else, she screeched like an evilly possessed banshee and literally flung the coupon in my face ! Gosh, that was classic I tell you. I was torn between wanting to laugh at the said customer's idiocy or cry from the embarassment at the same time. For pete's sake, squealing at cashiers ain't gonna make no prices go lower, honey.

Oh, I bought two lovely pairs of earrings today !I only planned to buy one but then i saw others and i got carried away.I would have bought more if Kim hadn't stopped me. I was like.."Oooh, i've gotta get this," and then a moment later..."Oh, look at those beauties" and a second later..."I'd die if i don't get this too"...:P They're absolutely fabulous. To.die.for. And they're now mine..muahaha..And I'm planning on getting a short denim skirt and match it with a denim jacket.Ooh lala..the temptations of clothes and fashion. haha...that was pretty bimbotic but wat's a gal gonna do if not drool over pretty clothes and itty bits of fabric that cost too much and function too little.

Okay, I've done my round of crapping for today. Tiil more nonsense lays it's sticky yet inevitable hand on me, I've gotta go catch up on some dreams.

Friday, February 03, 2006

The mystery of the missing covers

After a hiatus of two glorious days, I went back to work today. And thank God, the crowd weren't the same killer hungry ones i left behind on Tuesday. *phew* Basically it was the same old routine today, the only difference being that today i only cleared one table! As compared to the zillion tables i used to 'polish' when i first started, today was great !

Two new guys joined the crew today. Nothing much to say about them really. Right now, my workplace is kinda dominated by guys.... But on the whole, it's nice being able to talk to someone who at least speaks English. Not thatI have anything against Cantonese, but it's no secret that I'm a full-fledged "banana person"...if you don't know what banana means, it's just that the banana's yellow on the outside but white on the inside. That's likened to a chinese (yellow) who speaks English and nothing else(white)...

Something really funny happened at work today. At least it seemed funny to me.Before i embark on a lengthy dissertation of this grandmama's tale of mine, let me first give you some background info about my employer. With all due respect, she's still my employer but that doesn't mean she has the best memory around town. She muddles my name with that of my co-workers, and keeps forgetting who's who and who does what.

I digress. Back to the story,you know those plastic covers you put over the paper cups when you but drinks? Well, we ran out of it today and so we told the boss. She was at the 'crime scene' in seconds !
Boss: What happened to the covers?
Me: I don't know, we ran out of it i suppose...
Boss: Impossible, I'm sure I saw at least two rows yesterday, they were in a white plastic bag!
Me: Well, I was off yesterday, so i really don't know.
At this point she was already all over the place, pursuing the 'mystery of the missing covers', mercilessly interrogating anyone unfortunate enough to be in her path. After about 10 minutes, our star detective came up with her brialliant conclusion.
Boss: I'm 100% positive that the covers have been stolen. No doubt about that. Those lowly
scoundrels !
Me: Madam, who'd want to steal those plastic covers? What use would they be to anyone?
Boss: Don't argue. of course people would steal them. Some people are like that.Look, someone
took the plastic bag too. Urrgh.....sigh, you'll never understand..
Yea, maybe i'll never understand then.

Now that i think about it, maybe she's right. Maybe someone did steal those covers. Well, these days, times are so bad maybe there are a few poor souls desperate enough to steal those plastic covers and use them as plates maybe.Or maybe, as Chinese New Year decorations, or stapled together to make new, contemporary 'ang pows'. yea.I mean, with so many more expensive, more valuable, more use-able stuff around, like porcelain bowls, plates, cups,nice glass bowls and other utensils, a bag of plastic covers certainly comes off as more valuable. With that, I've come to a conclusive end regarding the mystery of the missing covers.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!

It's that time of the year again, when we go overboard, eat too much, drink too much, overdo stuff, and spent way way too much....But hey, it's all goooood.

The year of the dog has arrived, barking it's way in without much preamble. Reunion dinner was spent at home with my relatives coming over. There was so much food on the table and even more leftovers! And I know it's way too late to post my new year greetings but i was too busy eating *ahem* I meant working to come blog.

Chinese New Year day itself was spent working at the deli. I mean seriously working. It's funny how we take certain things for granted. Like visiting relatives during Chinese New Year, collecting 'ang pow's and stuffing yourself with new year goodies. This year, I missed all that, the fellowship, the jokes, and brimming laughter. But enough of all that, I've decided to list the good points of celebrating Chinese New Year,in my opinion.

  • first point of course being the ang pows...mmmmm...money!
  • the food! new year must haves...cookies and stuff i don't even know the names but tastes heavenly once in your mouth.
  • you get to make your new year resolutions all over again. Having broken almost all my new year resolutions, I get the chance to make them again and suffer the pleasure of breaking them yet again....:P
  • the chance to rot in front of the loyal idiot box, watching chinese movies and awards. Most of the time I don't get what they say because my chinese sucks, but it's the novelty of this once in a year thingies that draw me to them....
  • new clothes and make up !
  • You get 15 days to fill yourself up, have enough of the new year celebrations before you pull out of your holiday slackened self and get off your arse to start working your butt off, waiting for the next year to come round, where the whole whirlwind of activity repeats itself all over again...
There's another 11 days to go, so before that time's up, enjoy yourself, and have a properous, good year !
Happy Chinese New Year to all !