Monday, June 17, 2013
Storms make trees take deeper roots
Friday, June 07, 2013
The Clothes She Wore
Monday, June 03, 2013
Round
Saturday, December 22, 2012
I'm falling for your eyes, they don't know me yet
Perhaps it was the shifting shadows, or that one instant flash of recognition, but I looked away, just as you turned around. That look in your eyes before it skittered away .. I wondered what a day in your life looked like. Did you have someone at home waiting for you ? Did you kiss her in the morning before you left the house ? Will you be cooking dinner together, sipping a glass of wine while you trade the details of the day ? Do you plan of distant futures, do you laugh at the same jokes, do you vocalize the secrets she buries in her heart, do you ?
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This is the first in a series of something I've been wanting to do for a while now. Take a sentence of a song and weave a story. I'll be doing this more often. Stay tuned.
Thursday, August 23, 2012
Bleu
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Two cents
Saturday, March 06, 2010
Fleeting moments

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To persevere is to endure. There are things that brush past you and before you’re able to turn around and catch hold of it, it fleets off again. A teasing strand of long hair on sensitive skin, an accidental tangle of fingers, a vision of childhood dreams that creeps up in the chime of ringing phones and crisp business suits.
In a time that seems like eons ago now, I remember the fiery sun being swallowed in sips by mountains and the endless horizon, the whisper of a breeze running its silky fingers through my tangled hair, and the haunting scent of wild flowers. Lulled by the sweet sweet music of waves greeting shore, I turned to seek a friendly face, a hand to hold but I was alone. The undulating waves, and gathering dusk, carried that wish of mine, the day will come when I find that person.
Obsession to some, might be mere survival to others. I don’t want to reach out in dreams only to wake up clutching air.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Boom boom pow !

Monday, January 04, 2010
My last, your first

Monday, December 28, 2009
Lost

Sunday, December 20, 2009
Feliz Navidad
Today’s Smile Inducer : Good company, good food, great laughs, memorable weekends. The past few days were a dream. Alas, like all dreams, one has to wake up. Not without cherish-able memories though :)
Christmas trees so tall you have to tilt your head way up. Wonder, joy and lightheartedness reflected in shiny red, gold and silver balls. The air echoes of Christmas carols and Christmas cheer so tangible you feel it slowly chipping at the ice in your heart and warming you right down to your little toe. There’s a mutual sharing of holiday joy ringing in the air, only to be punctuated by a joyful child’s giggle and the quick pitter patter of last minute Christmas shoppers. Oh, and there is this lingering scent of pine trees, chocolate, whipped cream and cookies nipping teasingly at your senses.
Christmas has definitely got to be my favourite time of the year. Can you believe it’s hardly a week more to Christmas?
Christmas waves a magic wand over this world, and behold, everything is softer and more beautiful – Norman Vincent Peale
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Use somebody

The phrase ‘use and throw’ used to be only limited to disposable items, eating utensils, toiletries, diapers, well, you get the picture. I must have been sleeping in an entirely foreign land and missed the moment the phrase applied to ‘friends’ too.
When I build friendships, I lay the founding bricks in small, hesitant pieces. But when I finally trust, I tend to go all in, full throttle, all or nothing. That is probably the reason why I’m always finding myself the victim of crash and burns, hit and runs.
At times I feel like confronting these tormentors of mine. “Hey! I know what you’re up to”. Truth is, I think I lack not the courage for confrontation but rather the strength to search alone again. I’m naïve enough to lay all my trust repeatedly in the person who takes it, that fragile little globe of feeling and crush it. And as I lay in the middle of the glittering splinters of my hopes and dreams, I see despair, desperation and knowledge that this would have happened through tear-blind eyes.
I’m tired of second-guessing intentions. I’m tired of trying to pry through the masks that people don. I need to know that when I lean in and whisper a secret, you’ll keep it in your heart, just like I would yours. I need to know that when I fall, you’d laugh with me, not at me. I need to know that when I reach out, blind in the dark, you’d be my eyes, ears and heart. I need to be stupid, but right for once.
Call me silly if you want to, I’m adamant to live my fantasy. That fantasy where people really, truly care for the person that I am, not what I can do for them. Rude awakenings will only harden my resolve. I’m stubborn enough to want to look at the glass as half full. Maybe it’s to my detriment that I prefer to find friends for keeps, not keep friends for use. Right now, I really could use somebody...
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Just me

The crowd swelled around me , swirling and swishing in a kaleidoscope of colours, forms, emotions, thoughts. Swallowing me whole, I welcomed its cloak of anonymity. Lovers brushed past, two bodies stuck in a single soul, oblivious to the surroundings. There were tourists, cameras at the ready to put into tangible form what the mind would always remember. Little children zoomed past my ankles, dervishes in a blur of colourful dresses and quick feet.
It is at times like these that the anonymity of being in a crowd seduces me. In this sea of strangers, there exists no expectations, only a rare sort of acceptance. For in that one instant, I can cease being the diligent student, the girlfriend, the dutiful daughter, the listening ears and supporting shoulders. For one indulgent, selfish moment, I get to be me.
If you haven't really tried anything .. how can you say nothing works?
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Candle in the Wind

Tuesday, December 08, 2009
Twirls and Swirls

It was one of those days. He put on a record, releasing soft music into the lazy afternoon.
I looked up at him, shooting him a cheeky grin. Even then I knew I could have my way whenever I was with him.
“Dance with me. Teach me how.”
And so he took my small hands and clasped them in his large ones. Gathering me close, he counted softly in my ear “1,2,3,1,2,3 …. That’s all there is to it, follow the beat”
“Left foot forward, right foot back.”
“I can’t. I can’t keep up” I stumble and fall back, beginning to sulk.
With a chuckle he lifted me up on his toes and together we twirled around the room. Delighted, I laughed, a musical tinkle breaking the earlier solemnity.
“This is fun! Spin faster!” and so he did.
Grandma laughed at us then.
Dizzy, spent and tired, he set me down at last.
“One day you’re going to grow up and I bet you’re going to break some hearts too, my darling”
More than a decade later, I’ve grown up. I don’t know if I’ve broken any hearts along the way. But I do know one thing for sure. I broke yours. I’m sorry, but all I want is to dance on your toes again.
Sunday, December 06, 2009
Of Body, Mind and Soul

Heavily made up, scantily clad, she stood out in a circle of ogling males, her smooth, translucent skin a magnet for lewd, suggestive stares. Basking in the attention, she parades more flesh, carefully painted lips tilting upwards in a cat’s smile of seduction.
“We’re having a promotion today sir … “ she purrs, the sly tease of a promise hidden in the unfinished sentence.
It constantly boggles me how the male of the species fall for such quick-fixes. Blatant in-your-face-sex-appeal is the death of enigma. Allure settles becomingly in elegance, attitude and poise. But what can I say? Sex sells, and marketers, geniuses that they are pounce on such opportunities.
There are two meals on the menu here. One is cheap, easily available, common, fast food. A dime a dozen. The other, a gourmet meal, the very scent of which entices the most jaded of connoisseurs. Which would you choose? The quick albeit filling bite, or an experience born to be sampled, explored, discovered. Textures to be savoured, hidden layers to be sought out, appreciated.
It is sad to admit that at times like these, I don’t blame men for degrading women. I mean, if you’ve already done such an excellent job out of it yourself, who’s going to listen when you wail “Gallantry is dead!” ?
This post was ‘inspired’ after a visit to the PC fair in KLCC today. No wonder people flock there by the dozens. Short skirts, bare tummies, skin tight uniforms, and cleavage enhancing tops were the theme of the party. Since when was it the motto of every sales rep to leave nothing more to the imagination? Verdict : At least you can’t complain that stuff there weren’t cheap…
World AIDS Day was Dec 1st (Ooops..sorry for the previous error ...thanks for pointing this out Cleffairy..). Far from being the panacea to AIDS, I thought it was only appropriate if I shared my thoughts in these 4 words . JUST Keep. It. Zipped !
Saturday, December 05, 2009
Dare you to jump

Today's Smile-Inducer : Courage. Courage should not be limited to the confines of a battlefield. It's in the little steps you suck in a breath at, close your eyes and finally plunge in, eyes wide open.
Battle weary and energy-sapped, I crawled into my sanctuary of oblivion to lick my wounds. Dug up a bar of chocolate and indulged in one of my guilty secrets…sappy romances. Watched A Walk to Remember for what must be the 50th time now. And well, let’s put it this way : the faucet leaked for the 50th time.
I don’t want empty promises and sweet nothings. I’m waiting for the love that resides in the cozy pages of female fantasies or the shimmery instruments of actors and actresses. Love that is capable of withstanding the test of time. Love, that is everything Disney has inscribed into the heads of little girls all around the world.
I want it to take on life, leap up, reach out for me, engulf and bury me in a tidal wave of ecstasy. The kind of love that is constant, patient, deeply-abiding. Rob me of all sane thoughts for fickle I may be, but hey, a girl can dream.
Someone once asked me. If you could be with The One for one day, and one day only.. would you give him your everything? I know now that a part of me would crash headfirst into the slimmest glimpse of happily ever after, even if ever after only lasts 24 hours...A fleeting illusion it may be, but fading memories are better than none. What say you?
So here’s my question. Would you trade in a day of your life or brazen through a lifetime of regrets and what ifs?
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
Idiocy
Monday, November 23, 2009
Thinking of you
Watching the X-Men Origins - Wolverine made me think of you. It was one of those moments when thoughts of you waft through my mind, catching me at times I least expect.
Watching your comic heroes battling on screen transported me back to that morning. Sleepy eyed and grumpy I awoke to find you already watching a movie in the room.
“What’s this?”
“X-Men ! … which coconut husk were you from anyway?”
“Well … I happen to have a really …. busy life !”
And that was how you started telling me about the action figures who graced the pages that coloured your childhood.
In your infinite patience for my dozens of interruptions for clarifications, I realized then .. here’s the elder brother I’ve always had.
“Oh my ! He self heals ??!! Coolio! “
“You didn’t know that? “ *chuckles*
If only all things could heal like that. I hope you’re doing fine up there with all your new friends. I know they’ll be special. Just like you and the heroes of your imagination.

Friday, May 08, 2009
A disgrace to Mankind
Cruelty, like every other vice, requires no motives outside of itself, it only requires opportunity - George ElliotAmidst all the hype buzzing around the circus that is the political circuit in Perak, it was this article in The Star that left me speechless and seething with rage. The following excerpt puts into a nutshell the gist of the story.
A month ago, Pulau Ketam residents trapped about 400 dogs and transported them to Pulau Tengah to ease the stray dog population on their island.
The dogs, which lived below the stilt houses, would come up to the wooden platform during high tide.
Pulau Ketam village head Cha Keng Lee said most residents felt that the move to send the animals to the nearby island would resolve the stray dog problem.
The uninhabited island would also offer more space to the dogs, he said.
“Our aim was not to be cruel to the dogs. But we strongly feel that the stray dog problem must be solved. When the dogs come up to the platform, they defecate all over. Sometimes, they would also bite the children,” he said.
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It is absolutely disgusting what humans are sometimes capable of doing. Couple that with the pathetic excuses they dole out to cover their guilt and you get a contemptible breed. It hurts to know that my fellow men, despite having IQs and brains much more advanced to that of animals could behave in manners far worse than an animal.
Whilst one can understand their predicament with the dogs, it is impossible to agree with their reasoning for doing what they did. As much as the dogs pose a nuisance and threat to the afflicted community, trapping the dogs, and then casting them off to die a long, painful slow death on a deserted island with no food and water is certainly NOT human.
There are many ways out of their apparent dilemma, but they chose the easy way out. The coward’s route. There are associations and agencies and societies more than willing to aid in situations such as these. The actions of these residents work to prove exactly how irresponsible they are. If you have no love for dogs, then fine. Ever spared a thought for the environment then? What will happen to these dogs when left abandoned? They would surely die, and what would happen then to their corpses? Flushed away to the sea? Left to form petroleum thousands of years from now? Or *gasp* maybe feeling left out these green-friendly residents wish to be credited for creating a new strain of Influenza C : Canine Flu?
To quote the village head , “Our aim was not to be cruel to the dogs”, Oh really? Gee, does this mean there really are such things as fairy dogmothers who will descend from the starry heavens and organize lavish banquets for the poor unloved canines? Or maybe what you’re trying to say is there’re pixies, fairies and gnomes dancing around at tea parties having a ball of a time in deserted islands where humans are nowhere to be seen? Well then, maybe your intentions weren’t all that cruel to begin with.
We're lauded to be a civilized breed, but yet in the shadow of every step of achievement made by men, we degrade ourselves by moving two steps back. The latest update I read reported that the dogs have now turned to cannibalism after facing weeks of starvation, depicting a scene very much like that in William Golding's Lord of the Flies. I would so love to see how those people will fare if deserted on an isolated island with nary a drop of water, let alone food.




