Friday, January 27, 2006

Reality

Right now, I'm smackdashed in the middle of watching American Idol 5 auditions. But, I'm ever determined to blog today for the simple reason that my blog's pretty pathetic and not that it'll make much of a difference but adding one more inny binny post goes miles in soothing my conscience.Not that anyone's reading this anyway.

It's the commercials now and I'm back. Wow, I just heard this really good girl sing! I didn't catch her name though. :P I wasn't really paying attention until she started singing and holly molly, sweet music! My brother of course picked on the fact that her mum's a vocal coach so yada yada but i don't care, she sings like an angel !

Anyway, I'm feeling a wee bit ticked off today. As usual 'toe' came in today and started picking on me, for no reason at all! Urrgh i so hate it when people do that.And i hate it when people don't know when to shut their gaping mouths! Heck,you don't need to comment anything to prove you're not mute! That is exactly why I hold dear to this policy of mine. Shut up unless whatever you're gonna say will make a distinct difference. If not, just shut up ! The journey of life's great banquet sure is a discovery of different tastes. You have sweet moments, bittersweet moments and those not so rare fire ain't hot enough moments.Today,I had a good taste of life's sourness. Whatever it is, I thank god soon this whole thing is going to be nothing but a fraction of the past. Muahaha, it does give me supreme satisfaction that this is nothing but a measly stepping stone in my life. And 'toe' isn't going to have any idea what i'm talking about anyway. I know I'm not making any sense but i've gotta let off some fumes before i erupt like some long pent up volcanoe.

By the way, i made a fool of myself....again today. Why does that always happen to me? For all the difference it would make I might as well wear this big sign "Kick Me" as I parade around. But anyway, I'm so hating 'toe' right now. DUMB! DUMB! DUMB!

Okay,enough steaming for today. My apologies to anyone reading this post.
Bleh.

Reality

Right now, I'm smackdashed in the middle of watching American Idol 5 auditions. But, I'm ever determined to blog today for the simple reason that my blog's pretty pathetic and not that it'll make much of a difference but adding one more inny binny post goes miles in soothing my conscience.Not that anyone's reading this anyway.

It's the commercials now and I'm back. Wow, I just heard this really good girl sing! I didn't catch her name though. :P I wasn't really paying attention until she started singing and holly molly, sweet music! My brother of course picked on the fact that her mum's a vocal coach so yada yada but i don't care, she sings like an angel !

Anyway, I'm feeling a wee bit ticked off today. As usual 'toe' came in today and started picking on me, for no reason at all! Urrgh i so hate it when people do that.And i hate it when people don't know when to shut their gaping mouths! Heck,you don't need to comment anything to prove you're not mute! That is exactly why I hold dear to this policy of mine. Shut up unless whatever you're gonna say will make a distinct difference. If not, just shut up ! The journey of life's great banquet sure is a discovery of different tastes. You have sweet moments, bittersweet moments and those not so rare fire ain't hot enough moments.Today,I had a good taste of life's sourness. Whatever it is, I thank god soon this whole thing is going to be nothing but a fraction of the past. Muahaha, it does give me supreme satisfaction that this is nothing but a measly stepping stone in my life. And 'toe' isn't going to have any idea what i'm talking about anyway. I know I'm not making any sense but i've gotta let off some fumes before i erupt like some long pent up volcanoe.

By the way, i made a fool of myself....again today. Why does that always happen to me? For all the difference it would make I might as well wear this big sign "Kick Me" as I parade around. But anyway, I'm so hating 'toe' right now. DUMB! DUMB! DUMB!

Okay,enough steaming for today. My apologies to anyone reading this post.
Bleh.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Mundane

It sure is amazing how fast a day passes and before you know it...voila! Dawn turns into dusk. Today, I sat down and pondered upon the events of the day. Judging from today's post title, my day sure wasn't filled with agendas that will sure as hell grant me a ticket into the gleaming world of socialites. But either way, i sure got some inspiration sitting in front of ye old idiot box.

I was watching Malaysia's Most Beautiful and my mum and i were arguing over the qualities and of course 'surface' beauty of the final two contestants. Evidently, we didn't see eye to eye and me, being the ever 'immature' teenager around stomped out of the room and went on to brood in the next room. One of the perks of watching tv alone is you get loads of time to do your own thinking without someone screaming out a comment right into your ears. But then again, it sure wasn't satisfying voicing out your own comment when the only thing to hear you would be the loyal four walls. Well, i digress.

What would i define as beauty? I think that beauty lies in the heart most of all. I've always been a firm believer that you are who you want other people to think of you as. Beauty lies in kindness and goodwill. I mean, have you ever met someone, a stranger and you are inexplicably drawn towards him/her? I believe in beauty that radiates from the inside. And it isn't because I'm partial towards other seemingly common looking person just because i'm no great beauty myself. I do confess that i appreciate a pretty face and i am guilty of drooling over the occasional cute guy. But hey, I am after all a girl and a girl's got the liberty to drool over cute guys. Which girl doesn't? :P That's one of my favourite pastimes when working gets boring. My friend and I scout around but sadly, so far, we haven't come across a feast bountiful enough to brag about.

Well, enough crap done for today. I'm running late for my date with my pillow. And urggh, I've got work tomorrow. Sigh, you never really know what hard earned money really means until you get a real good taste of it. No, make that a huge big mouth-shutting chunk of it.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

The Calling

At last, the procrastinator in me has chosen to take a break, so here i am, jotting down my thoughts, musings,dreams, and observations from a mediocre's point of view.

Well, today's my off day, so yeah, i get a much much wanted break from counting money everyday.Heck, who would have thought that a job having a daily affair with the cash register could get so taxing eh? But, trust me, after a month of having to hear the dear beloved cash register sing it's ka-ching tune every other minute, you get seriously irked! If you don't get what i'm crapping about here, good for you ! It means that unlike me, you, are still very much on the sane side of the world.

Okay, enough crapping there, the main 'theme' of today's debut post on my very virgin blog would be how important it is to be polite to other people, namely waitresses..*ahem* and well, people who generally serve you. If you don't already know, I'm working part-time as a cashier cum waitress cum table-cleaner cum dishwasher at this local deli somewhere near home. Pretty much a jack of all trades kinda job where i gain much needed 'experiences' and of course the uber much more important priority....CASH! Yea, so instead of rotting away at home, getting fatter, killing my brain in front of the computer, i went out and seeked a job.

So, on to the topic of politeness. I find it very very revolting when someone speaks rudely to anyone for that matter. Sadly to say, many people don't have the haziest bit of an idea why the words please and thank you were created. The phrase 'ordering your food' is taken literally and that's exactly what this mules do! They order the person serving them, whistling annoyingly and hurrying people along as if they haven't got more than a milisecond to spare! And it's ironic how we take extreme pride in our 'budaya timur' when in actual fact I don't see much of a reason to take pride in this revolting predilection to conveniently forget your manners when foreigners who visit portray manners and politeness miles and miles more pleasant.And it simply does not make sense that every morning we hear on the radio, "Be courteous, be polite and give someone a smile" or something like that when evidently a majority of the population don't pay much attention to what's on the radio...Yea, the radio's just a silence-filler,nothing more... Forgive me if i've ruffled any feathers but that's just how i feel. My family thinks i'm an excellent example of a proud peacock when i convey my feelings to them.....What do you think?

For lack of something much more interesting to post and since my fingers can't stop it's maddened jig, forgive me if i've veered onto the more insane, not-making-much-sense side. Right now, i'm torn between the choice of wanting to cut my hair and the sudden sentimental feeling i get at the thought of losing my hard to get frizzy 'long' hair.And besides that, my dear brother kindly pointed out that chopping my hair off is only going to make my already moon-round face look rounder....sigh...decisions, decisions.:P But no matter, i have other things lined up on today's agenda. I plan to draw something,then go out and generally do nothing that needs my brain !

Okay, guess thats' all for now. If you've actually finished reading this post, well, bless your soul..
Signing out,
dreamer.